My Thoughts Exactly Syndication Thu, 24 Dec 2009 12:03:58 +0000 admin@dubtime.co.uk (Dubtime) IP.Blog 60
Gone would be the days where I could sleep to my heart's content.
Gone would be the days where I had control over my time.
Gone would be the days where I could do TV marathons, chat the whole day, go out with friends.

This would be the last Christmas that I would get to spend with family for the next four years.

For I start my residency training in Obstetrics on the 26th of December.

My days would again then be classified into three days.

Duty Day - Wherein I am to spend 24 hour duty in the hospital.
Post Duty Day - The day after wherein we still stay in the hospital until everything is done.
Pre-Duty Day - The most benign day since this is mostly out-patient work and we get to go home by 5PM, if there is no toxic patient.

I'm dreading it because I know it would not be a walk in the park. But I'm also excited because getting into one of the most sought after residency programs in my country, in the National University Hospital is the fulfillment of one of my dreams.]]> Wed, 23 Dec 2009 11:45:00 +0000
You'd be happy, dad. I could sit down on my piano again. For a while, it has pained me to play the piano without you listening in the background. Despite your limited understanding of my love for classical music, you always sat there whenever I would practice as if my scales were the most melodious music you've heard. I could play your favorite piece again. The piece that would earn me five hundred pesos everytime I play it for you such that your soldiers would always joke around that they would try to learn that particular piece too.

You'd be happy dad. I'm a doctor now. When you passed away, I was a struggling first year medical student barely passing my exams. I'm a doctor now and wished you were still here to put that cap and hood on me with mom. But I just kept that longing to myself since I felt it is unfair for mom who put me through medical school alone. I'm starting residency in a few days and I wish that you are here so that you could offer me your usual words of encouragement.

Remember when I was fetched from school and brought to a business meeting of yours? You just got the surprise of your life when that seven-year old me burst out to mom come dinnertime saying "akala mo dahil pinakain mo ako ng pansit di na ko magsusumbong kay mama na may kasama kang babae kanina."

Or how we would go on convoy whenever I would go to and from school just because you wanted me to learn to drive on my own but you weren't that confident yet that I would make it all the way from Pasay to Diliman?

Memories, I've got lots of them dad. Some would even be surprised that the military officer that they've known to be stern and strict is a gentle person at home. When I had you by my side, memories were nowhere, but three years after you said goodbye, all that's left are these memories to remember you by.]]> Sun, 13 Dec 2009 15:51:00 +0000